I Grieve...

So hard to move on, still loving what's gone.

I know they say that time heals and makes it better, but somehow the more days between the last day my son was with me and the days that he's now gone only make me miss him more and more and more. My poor son, you carried all of my hopes and dreams, perhaps it was just too much for you. I can only hope that the pain I feel today and will feel everyday without you is somehow pain that you were spared. I loved you the minute I found out you were inside of me and I will continue to love you everyday that you are not.

The Urn

We looked forward to

Your laughter

Your cries

The color of your eyes

Today we are left with

The urn on our dresser

We had hopes

We had dreams

We were happy, so it seems

Now we are left with

The urn on our dresser

We miss you

We love you

We wish you were here

Instead of the urn on our dresser

by Jeanna James Anzalone

You'll Live in Our Hearts...

In Memory of Newby Angel Anzalone who was born and died on 6/19/2009 but will live in our hearts forever & ever.
Love,
Mom & Dad

Snips and snails, and puppy dogs tails it is!

We're having a BOY!!! We were thrilled to see Newby again yesterday, despite the fact that the day didn't go as well as planned. It turns out he's a little smaller then he should be and it is probably due to the fact that I've developed Pregnancy Hypertension (high blood pressure). I am praying that it doesn't lead to Pre-eclampsia, which would have me on bed rest first, and could lead to a very early delivery (only 28 weeks!!!). I'm cutting all salt out of my diet and going to try to mildly exercise a bit more. Although, this really is all related to my diabetes, I can only hope for the best at this point. I go back for another sonogram in 2 weeks, and hopefully he will be bigger, a sign that he's still growing and only fell a little off track. The doctor says he appeared to be the size of 19 weeks despite the fact that I'm 20 weeks along. I said, couldn't that be just a miscalculation of my due date? She said no, because my 12 week sonogram was right on target. It's so hard not to worry but I know that stress certainly won't help things and will only make it worse. Poor Newby, sorry your mom has this awful disease. I pray everyday that you come out ok despite it all. Even though she said he's smaller then he should be, he is proportioned well and still look adorable to us. We can't wait to meet him!!!

Had to go to the hospital for this Sonogram, where unfortunately the pictures were not clear at all! Newby at 20 Weeks: